Somehow I firmly believe that this isn't going to be a good day. I woke up like 3 hours ago and I woke up in tears. Then I got totally sick and now I am still ill with a heavy dose of depression. I wonder how sad it is that I can sit in a room totally by myself and cry for what seems like no apparent reason. I am sure there has to be some underlying reason but since I can't remember my dream or if I dreamed I can't blame that. I haven't talked to another living soul today as of yet so it can't be that. I did read some other blogs however and although some were really good they weren't anything to cause the way I feel this morning. I was supposed to get my daughter up today and us go to town but between the tears and the being ill I am not so sure I will make it there. Its no real big deal as long as I go umm lets say by Saturday. I just really don't like thought of running out of something. But then I don't wanta get part way there and get sick and have to run home. eeek If I don't get over this soon I may just lose it on someone I don't want too. No not anyone imparticular but in my current state a word said wrong could send me right over the edge. Before you sit there thinking crying doesn't help anything I do know that but I just can't quit today. No one did anything to my knowledge to cause this. I am thinking I am just as mad at myself for being in such a state today, especially since I can't understand why. At least normally my crying episodes have a reason whether anyone else understands them or not.
Well I do hope you all have a great day.
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